Monday, August 29, 2011

The Waiting Game

Waiting is NOT my strong point. In fact, it's probably one of my biggest weaknesses. I like to know and do. I like to be decisive and then act swiftly on those decisions. It completely baffles me when people drive below the speed limit for no apparent reason. Why go 50 when the speed limit is 55? I don't like to go shopping in the way most women do, touching each item and combing diligently through the racks. All it takes for me is one good look around the store to determine if there's anything I'm interested in. It took Clint and me three months of knowing each other to get engaged and only four months after that to get married (which will be three years ago this Wednesday!). A photo from that day, just for fun:
August 31, 2008. Almost three years ago!
Why waste time in indecision? Why make a decision and then lolligag around in its implementation? It's just a foreign concept to me.

Anyway, I have been playing the waiting game since July 18, when I submitted my application for a job I really, really want, and in this case, the timing is now out of my hands. I know I'm still in the running for the position, but at this point there's nothing further I can do. And so I wait.
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And wait.
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And wait.
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And this is not easy for me. But there are lessons in it. Lessons in living by God's timing. In trusting God even as my unemployment drags on. In not relying on my own "self-sufficiency" to get the results I want. Lessons in the difference between laziness and waiting in obedience. Whew. It's hard, but God has always come through for us in the past, every single time. And so I will remain in the waiting game and continue to trust!

2 comments:

Kelly Hibbs said...

Hey silly girl, you put July 31 on that photo ;) its august! I totally relate on the wait. Tried to get work since April, but Gods given me odd jobs for income and to keep me busy since then....so I wait! And wait for Saddle Lights...we thought it would be funded this fall, but we just got word TU is highly likely to work with us for next year instead. And so I continue to wait! It's one of the hardest disciplines of our spiritual life. The wait.
Miss you! Xo kel

Lizzie said...

Oops! Thanks for catching my mistake. I just fixed that date. I have never thought of waiting as a spiritual discipline, but somehow that idea seems to make it more bearable.